I am both shadow and light. My foibles and my fragility cannot separate me from the Love that created me.
Fullness in Surrender: Pleroma and Kenosis
Recently during prayer, I was drawn toward a posture of deep surrender. As if “regular” surrender were not enough, this particular invitation on this particular day led to a powerful insight on the nuances of surrender in everyday life and actual practice.
Longing, Not Fulfillment
Sometimes, waiting for something to happen can be so intense that it hurts. Longing, especially deep longing, can cut so deep that it brings angst. Much of the decade of my twenties was an achy, angsty season. Having been wounded by the ongoing absence of deep fatherly love during childhood, I was desperate to find true love during my twenties. Falling in and out of relationships, in pursuit of love, was painful. Even after I did eventually partner up and commit to lifelong love, a further disappointment set in: “true love” was not magical, and pursuing it with a particular partner still required a lot of work!
